life has ruff ends...

2007-05-06T11:39:00.000-07:00

I'VE CHANGED MY BLOG ADDRESS.

dacuteguy.blogspot.com

PRESS HERE

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-YiPpEe-

Manchester United is the new EPL champions. Nytes Mourinho.

2007-04-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

OK... First of all, no more LC. I'm in LR now. The 1st day of 2nd year was like fun. Go school to hear some ground rules and then, the clicks went out to chill at Tampines. School's timetable not that hectic, thank god. Well, I'm off to bed. Chaows!

2007-04-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

Hi... just in case you guys forgot how I looked like... This is me!

Im going to school again in a few hrs time! Yahoo!!! Finally, I can be in school. Holidays were boring. New modules this year. Hope to pay more attention in school for my second year. No more GPA of 1.5 by end of year 2. Good luck to me K? Off to bed school starts at 10. Chaows!

2007-04-12T11:06:00.000-07:00

Went out again just now. Its more like a tour, around the city. First was Suntec. Met Hariz, P.B and Muqsit there. We proceeded to Marina Sq to window-shop and eat, I can't wait for payday. There's lot to buy there. When we reached Esplanade, it was drizzling. It was like a 'ghost-town' there. We just continue walking to Boat Quay, Clarke Quay and finally, Plaza Singapura. Ate and joke around, mainly about people surrounding us. So, this goes to show my boredom during the holidays. I just cant stay at home. Nytes ppl.

Chaows!

2007-04-11T13:34:00.000-07:00

Worked at 1000hrs just now. It was boring as usual. The lunch crowd getting smaller by the day. And this is my last week working during lunch period. School starting soon, so be working from 5 pm onwards on weekdays. Sian!!!

After work, went to Vivo City with Hariz and Muhsin. The only reason was to chill. We were laughing like super alot, my cheek hurts. I saw Sentosa's night life from Vivo's Skypark, it was so lively. Wished I could be there. I wanna go but no one to bring along. Haish! It was a beautiful scene. Withs colourful cablecars and green-eyed merlion.

Well, I miss Irah! She owe me lunch and Yus, you owe me dinner at Simpang Bedok!

Chaows!

2007-04-08T08:28:00.000-07:00

The days of my life keeps coming in an unfairly trend. Sick health, friend lost, cash depleting, bad result, handphone malfunctioning, betrayal, work sucks, and boring holidays. In simple term, March wasn't my month. now, I really shouldn't have taken for granted of what I used to have.

However, i'm making changes. I wouldnt want to see my life in this way. Luckily to my family, my crewmates, classmates and my soon-to-be new house, I'm looking forward for tomorrow, and I know there's gonna be happiness in this unstability. Well, now. I'm off to catch a late night movie.

Guess by blogging, chatting and watching movies, I can at least subside my anxiety by a bit.

Chaows!

Who am I suppose to be?
Where am I heading?
Why am I feeling lost?
What is my motive in life?
When am I going to be happy?
How does it all end?

Once again, my goodbyes to my best lady friend! I'm really gonna miss her!

2007-04-06T09:16:00.000-07:00

I've read a particular blog, its seemed to mean about me. Well, if it is, here's an explaination 4 U. If not...

Since 2nd May 2006, 11 months of friendship with U. 'Forever', we promised, thru thick & thin, we'll face it together. To U, our friendship MAY BE beyond repair. But to me, its just two friends being too busy to keep in contact.

I still keep those pictures of us in my thumbdrive, but I dont dare to open it up. Cause it will only remind me of a great friend I used to have. However, they still are my sweetest memories and one day, I will look back on the times we had. And I'm still glad U kept our pictures too.

No friendship can stand by too many lies, therefore I'm being truthful here. As much as I hate to lose U, I am also sick of getting hurt. Seriously, it still does hurt thinking of U and the promises U gave.

I do admit, I am trying to avoid you, by being mean and leaving U all alone. And I dont think your guy would like it if I keep in contact with U. I'm totally sorry for doing so. But, it seems that U are happy without me to share anything with U. So, keep it up.

Until the day either one returns, I'm sorry to say my goodbyes. Have lotsa fun. I know I still owe U a trip to Sentosa, another day k? Do nudge me on msn if U want cause U are still my best lady friend.

CHAOWS! boncet!

2007-04-04T07:29:00.000-07:00

Today is the 4th of April, result out and miraculously, I passed. Even my dreadful MTP, I scored E.*better than F right?* GPA 1.516. Well, I just cannot wait to go to school. Miss my classmates. I'm going to be in 2nd year already. I just wished the same thing will happen again while I'm on my way up the escalator.*dream on* Nevertheless, wish it wasn't holiday now. I'm getting bored by the day.

[P.S.] oi, tagboard aku bkn untuk kutuk orang siak. biarlah dia pandang motor. mata dier pe. aku tak suprise dan tak kisah ar kalau dia jatuh motor patah kaki. buat bodoh je. jgn semakkan aku nye tagboard. Chaows!

2007-04-01T09:41:00.000-07:00

2 'K.O'!

Well, Anugerah's auditions over for the crew-brothers from 'Karimbat', Apiz and Fadz. Not even one made it to the second round. he sang better than me.*haish* Both sang 'Butakah Cinta'-Spring. I guess singing isn't our thing. But nevertheless, I'm not going to stop singing in the bathroom. Hehe. Btw, thanks Nadh, Ain, Cherry(Mrs. Fadz) and Razel(Cherry's sis) for coming down to support us! And guess who I met at J.E.C just now? Hazel.*woohoo!* She was the one who noticed and said hi. How can I not notice her?*blur me* Well, thats not saddening for me. Its just a competition.

However, I'm sad because I feel as if I'm being betrayed, and its from someone whom I thought I could trust. She put me in trouble with her guy the last time. Now, she leaked my secrets on why I didnt go to work on Thursday. I really am disappointed in her. I never did trusted the other party before. He's just an acquaintance. Btw, I wonder, would this happened if I hadn't introduced her to him? Would they be talking behind my back? See how hypocrites people can be... Thats the reason I only trust my family and my brothers from my crew. So, 'DTAe-Dont Trust Anybody...else'

Chaows!!!

2007-03-28T16:51:00.000-07:00

The 100th Post

Good morning everyone. its 0800hrs. I've just reached home. Was with Min, Hariz, P.B and Naqib from 10pm yesterday @ MOS. Ministry Of Sound was fun last night. How I entered?*secret* It was Ladies Night. lots of cute girls.*woohoo* Had few neat of Simmnorf before entering. Clubbed like hell until I tore my favourite shoe.*boohoo* Haha. Btw, the hot chick I danced with, Hazel, was someone's fiancee.*uh-oh* :x Sorry! I didnt know until after the club ended. Hehe. Well, I'm off to bed now cause my eyes just won't stop twitching. Apeez out!

Chaows!

2007-03-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

3 random topics!

1.Its like I'm on a movie marathon and I'm not yet had my salary.*wasting of money sey* I finally watched '300'. A show where violence prevails. How I wished I was a Spartan. I would have lived to kill by then and my honour was to my sword. Not much difference to 'Pathfinder', Both based on war legends and both are gruesome.

2.And I managed to watch T.M.Ninja.Turtles with Sis despite my hectic schedule of work. Wouldn't have missed it for the world. Hehe. But, quite saddening to see the turtles not playing their roles. For example, Leonardo's not much of a leader in the movie, Donatello was outsmarted by Mikey, Raphael's no more a rude dude and Michaelangelo's no more a party dude. Haish. BTW, there's gonna be a 5th ninja turtle, "dacuteninja". HEHEHE, joking lah!

3. To Siti Fairuz of LC, Happy 19th Birthday! Hope your birthday celebration later goes well. Haish!*dah tua jugak kwn2 aku eh!*

I'm off to bed! Working @ 7am tomorrow! Chaows!

2007-03-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

Two straight movie day by day. Yesterday, I watched Pathfinder with Nadhrah. It's gruesome. EEEWW!!! Just now, I went to Shaw Towers and watch the master of disaster, Mr Bean's Holiday with Yus and Irah. The only joke I can remember is when Yus slammed to the ground when he thought there was another seat beside him, which was actually the aisle for people to walk. *haha* Chilled with the crew after watching Bean at esplanade, enjoying ourselves. Been a while since I had a great laugh. Just reached home, going to bed and working tomorrow. Takecare guys, nytes!
Chaows!

2007-03-22T11:08:00.000-07:00

Haish... I need a break. The whole week was like tiring.*yawn* Work in the morning due to the holidays and going out in the afternoon and coming home late, not getting enough sleep for me. Some recap of things done since last Friday.

Fri- Exam and soccer.
Sat- Shopping with the crew.
Sun- Work the whole day.
Mon- Retake WIM, Went Vivo with Nadh.
Tues- Work and soccer.
Wed- Work and celebrate sis birthday.
Thurs- Work, smoke Sheesha with classmates.

Luckily, I'm not working tomorrow because, may be sending dad to hospital again. Btw, I feel like going to Sentosa and watching a movie mext week.*preferably, Mr Bean's Holiday* Anyone want to tag along? Dial me up! Few pics that were taken the past week.

Well, going to have supper with Irah now. Chaows!!!

2007-03-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated 18th Birthday a crewmate, Fadz.*200307*

&
Happy Birthday To My Sister. Love You!*210307*
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Kau datang bila ku kecewa...
Terasa diri...di persenda...
Dimana berakhirnya nanti
Permainan sendiwara mu ini...
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Jika benar cinta itu buta...
Butakah mata ku...
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Apa yang ku inginkan...
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2007-03-18T09:36:00.000-07:00

Accidental Love Became Lost Love

My longest post I've posted. I don't know the purpose. Its nothing special but please, do read on. Its only about why I can't forget Aaz, since the day I met her till now. This is how it all started.

I was at an escalator in school on my first day @ ITE. A girl pulled my shirt from behind and asked what course I was in.*dang! she was cute!* I told her that I'm in logistic. She said that she was, too. She then said, 'Good! lets go to the auditorium together!'*of course, i said yes!* When outside the auditorium, I wanted to know her name so I offered to find her name from 5 long lists of classes. I'm in LC and she is LB.*haish* We entered auditorium and got separated there.

The next few weeks, I saw her in school. Her self-assurance told me that she could have had a boyfriend then, so I didn't get to know her better. But, we exchanged smiles when we saw each other along the corridor. One day in a lecture hall with few other classes, she messaged me. I asked her the source of where she got my number. My friend is her classmate, he gave her my number. For 2 weeks, we talked on the phone. She was single. We then started hanging out before being an official couple.

During that time, she loved me more than a diamond. She cared for me more than I care for myself. She pampered me more than pampering a baby. She was my heaven then.

For 2 months++, I was happy with my life and its surroundings, until the day my ego got the better of me.*010906* Without fights, misunderstandings and quarrels, we got separated.*where did it go wrong?* 230 days have past, and I'm still regretting on what I had done. Maybe, it's because, she used to tell me that I was the reason she dare to love again and that she's the reason I liked going to school. But now, she is happily attached with Epol and as much as I hate it, I'm happy for her too. I'll be waiting until the day I am able to pinch her cute face again. Btw Aaz, you can still rely on me on becoming your listening ears.

Chaows!

2007-03-15T09:57:00.000-07:00

I am supposed to be studying but I cant.*stress lah* Tomorrow is my final paper and guess what, I went to catch a movie, alone!*must have been crazy* I watched 'Stomp The Yard'. Was actually fun not watching with anyone as there is like no one to disturb your concentration to the movie. The show was kinda slow in the beginning. But, it end up with a Bang! However, 'You Got Served' is still my favourite dance movie.

Other than the part of dancing, some parts of the show depicts me. Its abt a guy, trying to do the best he can to impress a girl he wants. However, the girl has a guy whom she don't feel loved with. The girl also has green as her favourite colour. However, in the movie, he had a happy ending. But, will I?

miracles will happen, i just know it

time heals everything, just follow the beat

the choice was yours, you have chosen

i'm just waiting, but it just wont happen

2007-03-14T15:17:00.000-07:00

I need an explaination... FAST! Why did u go?

Miss Narcissist, Aaz

here's a good fren of mine, boncet. she is a great company whenever she is with you. but now, no more going out, and chilling out at cafe's i guess. she's back to her old life... well, you noe where to find me... good luck... chaows!

btw, its 6 am and im like almost drunk, so nytes.

2007-03-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

Been a while since I blog about things around me *all this while, its abt aaz*. Exams was like difficult just now. Stress up because of exams and some other things. Played soccer to cool off and ya, I'm still stressed up. Dad's getting better, tomorrow another check-up for him. No more court visiting for now, haish! 2 more exams before holidays so ya, I should be studying but just can't concentrate. Well, off to catch a late night movie now at town, *member blanje mah*. So, tata.

P.S. Good luck to Yan cause tmr he's gonna be N.S.men... Dah takde setan ar crew aku... Haish! Suffer ar kau kat dalam... Hahaha. But still, gd luck yaw!
Chaows!

Kau timbul bila ku ingin melupakanmu

Kau pergi bila ku ingin mendakapmu

Apa erti segala yang berlaku?

Mungkinkah cubaan bagiku?

Setiap malam, kutatapi potretmu

Titisan air mengalir dari mata KU

Ingin ku memberitahu

Akan kesetiaan ku kepada mu

2007-03-10T08:42:00.000-08:00

"gallery"-Mario Vazquez

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your lungs close
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

2007-03-08T10:32:00.000-08:00

You are a drug that makes me high
You are a jet that makes me fly
A tear on you saddened me too
A smile on you brightens my blue
Shades of colours blinds the eye
Never will I say goodbye
Pictures of you in my gallery
Songs depicts you in my MP3
I never wanna make you cry
Wanna hold you again before I die
A shorty like mine is just so fine
A boncet like you never came in two
A replacement for you will be hard
I'm not choosing from any wild card
Will always choose you over everybody
Cause nobody defeats my Nurazri

"Gallery"- Mario Vasquez

2007-03-05T23:24:00.000-08:00

When i thought everything was changing for the better...

Ever felt happy, sad, frustrated, angry, lonely, confused and agitated all at the same time? Guess what, I am feeling that feeling, and its not good. Everything just seem to be meaningless. I know I shouldn't be but I cant help it. Haish... If only I could put in words.

You shouldn't deny what u have been feeling all this while. Ya, you always make my day everytime you are near me but I feel as if I'm no use to you(which i know im not). I know you need time to yourself, after what happened. All I am asking for is a chance to prove myself worthy and that you wont be leaving me all alone again.

a second with you is like a year

guess i've reached a lighyear by now

i rather be the bear u hug each night

than not seeing and holding u tight

I'll Be - Edwin McCain

2007-03-03T09:09:00.000-08:00

Bad Day Turn Great

Start off with waking up late and reached work 1/2 hr later, resulting in the deduction of pay by 1hr. First time I served lunch that bad, queue was super long (it was worst than normal weekday) and I am the only sandwich-maker (weekdays, there's 2 sandwich maker). Damn tiring. Got reprimanded for doing wrong sandwich and got a complaint. Somehow, my mind went astray.

But, my day was much better when Aaz came to see me, along with Filza. Made her a sandwich. Aaz seemed to have grow chubbier by the day (what have u eaten?). (: Sent her back to Jurong (yup, I miss that place). Went home straight. The journey home was super long. Memories of those days still lingers. Haish. Now, that makes me miss her more.

Btw, Man U won 1-0, yippee! Chaows!!!

2007-03-01T09:50:00.000-08:00

My Mixed Emotions on 1st March

Sad- Saddening to hear from Irah that my ex, Aaz and her guy, seemed much happier than before. Guess thats why she doesnt reply and msg me anymore. Happy Luck to You Two. I won't be disturbing you then. But don't worry cause I won't forget your sandwich.

Anger- Accompanied my sister and dad to family court to a hearing. My sister won case but temper boils when defendant's brother argued with my father. He was cursing my sister. Lucky for you, there were cops around. If not for them, I guess you'll be in ICU.

Worried- My dad is still sick. He shouldn't have went to court just now cause he was quiet the whole day, after the incident. Praying for him to get better, SOON!.

Happy- Its payday today. And that put the smile on my face for the rest of my day. (:

All I want is a minute by your side.

To make my soul in full delight.

The messages u gave, it makes me smile.

I've wasted my chances, all this while.

I just hope for it to be true.

Cause I will be waiting on, just for you.

Call me stupid, I prefer it blind.

I never stop loving a girl so fine.

Only your picture fits my photoframe.

And my last breath will say your name.

2007-02-27T00:39:00.000-08:00

All the things u said
I hope its true
Until the day I'm dead
I'll be waiting for you...

2007-02-24T12:17:00.000-08:00

Ever heard of a 'best men win' game? Well, I lost to a better man. I lost the best/perfect girl the world could ever have, Aaz. I'm very pleased to at least know the truth but its disappointing to know that she gave him another chance, after 6 months of me wanting to prove myself to her. Nevertheless, I wish them best of luck. He isn't that bad after all. For me, there's never gonna be a happy ending. *This ain't no fairytale, you know*. I guess I wont be spending the time with the one I truly love, not until i can find someone better, which I doubt. Its just hard to find a replacement cause she was and still is 'irreplaceable'. To Mr Cupid, where is the love? Well, off to my favourite thing in life, sleeping(cause its the only place i can spent my time with her). Below are two songs that currently suits me most, 'Sejati'(which means everlasting in malay) and 'Just The Girl'. I want her to know of the everlasting love i have for her, cause she's just the girl i'm looking for. Chaows!!!

"Sejati" - Amy & Awie

"Just the girl" - The click 5

2007-02-23T09:09:00.000-08:00

Haish! Its sad to see people sick. Accompanied my dad to CGH cause he's sick, almost warded but he didnt want. And my uncle's having fever too. Pity them. But on the bright side, family bond getting stronger. Hope you guys doing fine there.

On the phone with Aaz right now, comforting her after her bad day. I guess she's alright by now. She keep pastering me for a sandwich. I promise I'll make you one, k? Miss talking to you lah, and you are still sweet as ever. Cheer up K? A smile a day keeps the tears away. :) No more crying, alright? You don't look cute with panda's eyes. I'm off to sleep. Take care. Chaows!

2007-02-20T08:12:00.000-08:00

Today was like any other day.

Today was bored. I miss school and my classmates, especially Irah. Woke up at 1+ to the smell of my mum's nasi lemak. Yum! Yum! Went to meet the crew playing sepak takraw before heading to work, damn I miss that sport too. Work was boring as per normal, with not much customer around. Finished work at 9pm. Met Nana for a while, she said she miss me.(Wow! I'm being miss!) Although it was for only an hour, she made my day. :) Kinda missing her right now. Met the crew again after that. It was then that Mr Policemen came to screen us.(First screen of the year) Reached home at 0002hrs. Well, off to bed for the next day.

Something I made up about life.

Know no Limits but Never be too confident in anything
Know no Fear and Never let anything overcome you
Know your Strengths and Never stop improving
Know your Weaknesses but Never let it fail you
Know Others but Never look down on any
Know Yourself and Never think you are weak

Chaows!!!

2007-02-18T16:26:00.000-08:00

Its 0829hrs on Monday morning

I just reached home from East Coast Park. The Karimbat X-T Crew had BBQ pit yesterday. It was our day off work, school and any problems. It went alright. Our invitees/guest, mostly girls didnt come to our pit. Nevertheless, it was fun, we enjoyed ourselves. Most of the time, we joked, laughed and giggled at each other's silliness and stupidity. But some of them went drinking(excluding me) and got a little out of hand, very kecoh. But, they made me laugh at their silliness, especially my nephew, Izzat. Haha. I went home first cause i seriously cannot stand being tired and sleepy. So now, I'm off to bed... Nytes...

Btw, I wished all my Chinese friends 'Gong Xi Fa Cai'.

Chaows!

2007-02-14T10:54:00.000-08:00

Its 2.45 am on the 15th of February 2006...

Just arrived home. Was with Nasir and Noh at the void deck, testing bikes. So here I am updating on what happened on ♥alentine's Day.

Got HangBao from boss. hehe! Btw, ♥alentine's Day was damn boring. I had to spent the whole day at work. Haish... I guessed Cupid is getting sick of shooting those love arrows at me cause this is my first time not celebrating ♥alentine's Day since the last 4 years. So jealous seeing those couple getting so intimidated with each other. Seriously, I missed having a special someone, someone who cares about me.

Some things money and looks can't buy:

Decisions that you dont look back on- This applies to everything you do. Never regret on what you choose or do no matter what the result is. There's no way you can turn back time. There's a saying, ' no use crying over spilt milk'.
Trust is the word- No one can trust a person instantly. Trust yourself and your capabilities. Its totally worth it. On the other hand, prove that you're trustworthy. In return, get a friend who can prove to you of his/her worthiness. When you have this kind of friends, never let them go.
Family is your roots- There's nothing that can break a family ties. There's always solutions to any problems within the house. I know how its feels not growing up with your own family by your side. Dont get me wrong, I'm happy here with this lovely family. Love them all...

Thats all... Btw, do tag me when you are done reading.

Chaows!!!

2007-02-10T08:12:00.000-08:00

If ur names on my links, try hovering your mouse on top of ur name to see what is my opinion of u.

2007-02-09T03:59:00.000-08:00

First up, i like to congratulate those who think they did great for the 'O' level, especially Fadz who scored 16 pts. Good job. For those who thinks they did badly, its not the end yet. There's always other alternatives. Join ITE, its not that bad. Well, see u guys again. Chaows!

2007-02-07T08:29:00.000-08:00

Aaarghhh!!! No hope for the freaking MTP module, the test was hard and i guess im gonna fail again.*haish* Well, who cares?

Other than that, craving for a game of soccer with the crewmates. I wanna try out my new shoe. So crew, on Friday, 'GAME ON!'.

So now, off to dreamland again. Hope my dream is swit(been having nightmares lately). Chaows!!!
P.S. dreamt of u twice...

2007-02-05T09:38:00.000-08:00

OK! OK! Its been days since i post. Its been 'emo' me for a while... AAARGHH! Girls just make my life unfair. So, here I am updating since some people just cant stop pestering me to update. Promise, no more emo. Haish! But, i dunno what to update about. Lucky for u guys, i still remember last week's event... For weekdays, (School, Werk, Chat, Sleep.) Thats the routine. DXO was packed on Sat so didnt went in, but chilled at esplanade with Yan and his girl there. Sunday, watch and played soccer. And, my monday could not have been plainer than yesterday... So, I guess its gonna be that way till the day i can spend my time wisely with a special some1... N tmr, i got test but havent study. Haish. But 4 now, the bed's calling me... Got to go to dreamland, my dream girl waiting for me... Chaows...

2007-02-01T11:46:00.000-08:00

u are making it harder for me to forget you~

Current Mood: Depressed & Confused

Guess what? Life's never straight! No use being sarcastic because not everyone will know whether you meant what you said or not. After six freaking months, I then realised the mistake I've done and how she felt at that time. I guess its too late and no point regretting now. I can only watch you from afar. Wishing you best of luck! Chaows!

Other than that, you cannot put your hopes too high, NEVER!

2007-01-31T11:11:00.000-08:00

Life is Unfair.

I guess I just have to lay out of your life. I dont wanna be a nuisance to you because u are still thinking of your past and I cant do anything about it, at all. Well, just hope you do great and thanks for your company all this while. Btw, just do something about those migrane. C ya around. Miss Ya!

P.S. Miera got a new guy in mind... Haha, so much of not wanting to forget me... Well, who cares?

2007-01-30T07:36:00.000-08:00

Happy bdae to this cute gal... Nur Athirah! 1 yrs old. *muacks*

Im listening to Blink 182's 'i miss you' and Im kinda missing someone in particular.

2007-01-29T10:11:00.000-08:00

Monday Blues?

Went to Bugis cause i planned in buying a bag. Idah accompanied me. The bags are so NOT nice, like ah beng like dat. Sorie Idah for pulling u here and there, I guess i'm kinda bit fussy like u said i was. Hehe.

Reached home at 1130. Freezing like hell now with the wind blowing hard. And my nose is leaking... grrrr! i guess i'm down with flu. Hopefully not. Just taken my meds and guess i'll be fine in few hours. *yawning* I wanna go get a good rest. So, takecare...

-ChaowS-

2007-01-28T07:11:00.000-08:00

What The Hell...

1. The relationship's over and she still says she thinks of me, in her blog and on her msn nick. Well Miera, its not worth it. Dunn make it hard on the both of us... I pity to see her in this state. And she keep on blaming me. I know i was wrong but not totally. Like my previous relationships, having someone was like having no one. She avoided me and not calling me. So, i guess being single is better. Now, i have to count again the days of being available... She wasted my 6 mths of counting. I guess, my biggest mistake here was rushing(Agian!) on having a relationship because now alot of people thinks that i was not being serious and was only playing her heart. Well, i never did.

2. Well, besides all that, thanks to some good company who listens to my story: Aaz, Yus. Especially Wahidah, thanks alot for keeping the smile on my face and accompanying me. Hope I never did bother u. Btw, I miss you and ur style of irritating me!

3. Im all tired and someone cant eager to read this post so im off. Chaows!

2007-01-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

3 sad story to share.

1. My relationship ended today after a few weeks together. So sorry i cant save it. I hate feeling this way.

2. Suntec's Swensens lost a manager when Ma'am Charlene passed away two days ago due to an accident. Although i didnt noe her that well, I felt the lost too. Saddening sey, she got no relatives in S'pore.

3. I guess im going to fail my WIM's Wms software test just now. So hard lei. Haish...

2007-01-23T13:04:00.000-08:00

Happy 58th Birthday 2 My Lovely MUM!♥

May All Ur Wish Come True!

I LOVE YOU!

Mwah!

IBU! IBU!
Engkaulah Ratu Hatiku.

Side News:

Bad News... I scored 8% for my MTP test.. Wow... How pathetic...

2007-01-21T10:54:00.000-08:00

Funky Nites Out

Whoa! Enjoy like hell @ DXO last night with Wan, Yan, Irah, Yus and Nadh. Although the place was like a can of sardine, the atmosphere was still happening. Danced like hell, sweating like nobody's business. Well, was damn tiring. Sat at the bustop for the 1st bus and it was damn long. Reached home at 8 a.m. Well, thats 4 now... Yus, next week BuMbLe BeE pulak pe? Here's some pic taken after the whole thing

2007-01-19T00:43:00.000-08:00

Phew! My FDM test was QUITE easy... For someone who studied only for 1/2 an hour, it was... But some question was pathetically easy and i didnt answer. How pathetic can i be? Well, just hope i can pass this module... I've alreadi flopped my MTP. :( I've just reached home from school and going to werk later... So, keep u updated l8er k? Chaows!!!

P.S... Miss Miera like hell....

2007-01-17T10:07:00.000-08:00

4 Things To Be Happy Abt Life

1.My doll, Miera. ♥ U

2.My Strong Family Bond 3.MY Trusted Crewmates

4.My Understanding Classmates

2007-01-16T07:28:00.000-08:00

Firstly, HAPPY B'DAE To Hidayah(~~ShOrTy~~).

Well, had a gr8 time at Pizza Hut with my classmates... The cake Muqsit bought for her was so nice... Well, lucky for Hidayah. Anywaes, Cheers!

...BUT...

Those aside... I feel as if im not attached. So sad... She doesnt kol plus she alwaes find the right excuse not to mit me... Haish... Damn missing her rite now... If im not needed, tell me...

2007-01-06T09:32:00.000-08:00

Amazing fact about my ~~useless~~ life.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend.
Im not short, U're just too tall.
Im not suffering from insanity, i enjoy every second of it.
Im richer inside, Den what i have outside.
Im far from over, Yet so near to the end.
Im collecting frens now, But they end up as my enemy.
Im dreaming of you, But you are not there.
Justice was served, But life is still unfair.
U may be far, But the distance is felt Here.

2007-01-01T04:29:00.000-08:00

Ello Everyone! Happi New Year!
Been at the esplanade yesternight w/ Yan, Fadz bros, the 2 Wans, Jas, Dhan, Om, Izat and Nasir. The fireworks was simply amazing... After that, we went to Supreme Court and Fort Canning. Fadzil, Jas, Izat & Irwan drank like hell. Was laughing at their insanity throughout. Mepek ar lu orang. By 5am, we were at the esplanade again. The more the drinking for them, the more the boredom for me. @ 8.30am, I reached home. Chaows!

My wishlist for '07.
1. BE 18!
2. Get a PSP
3. Get a new fone
4. Go on holiday w my classmate
5. A new life
6. (to be filled in later)

My resolutions for '07.
1. Dont fall for a girl easily
2. TRY not 2 skip classes
3. No more drinking
4. Support this lovely family of mine
5. Be independent
6. Nvr forget my crew no matter what happens

2006-12-28T08:02:00.000-08:00

OK! OK! Cant stop myself from blogging thou i dunn want to. Hehe! Me and my itchy hands... Thou i've made a new blog, i cant blog abt maself cos its 4 my crew. So, kinda change my mind about closing this blog.

Well, quite a good week i had except yesterday... Was coming home from work when 8 Matreps followed me back from city hall. They were pointing at me in the train. I overheard them wanting to beat me up. What makes me more nervous is when i changed cabin, they followed along too. Luckily I called Fadz and he was at home. He alerted my crew members. 6 of the Matreps alighted at Eunos. My crew waited for me @ bedok MRT station. When I alight, 2 of the Mats followed me. But as i walked towards my crew, they vanished. I guess they gave up cos of the large crowd or they noe that i had already contact some frens to help me along. Afterall, my phone kept ringing when Yan and Fadz kept calling to noe my condition. Btw, Thanks guys. If u guys had not came to my aid, I'll be at the CGH by now...

2006-12-22T11:30:00.000-08:00

happi bdae to nurazri a.k.a aaz... 18 already eh? hehe... you made my day lah... seriously, u did. sorry didnt get you anything... maybe when sch reopens, i give u k? but u had to go off early, its ok... i understand... take care now...

btw, this is going to be my last post of this year... and maybe forever... no time ar to blog... the onli reason i keep on blogging is that aaz still reads dem... and now, since there is no possibility of going back with her, there is no point of me blogging about how i still feel towards her... i am taking this opportunity to 4get her... so, dunn bother contacting me k, aaz?

2006-12-20T12:08:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday To My Niece, Izzabella

2006-12-18T10:04:00.000-08:00

Others draw little hearts on their papers to be loved.
I drew little stars so hopefully my wish can come true.
I hate to admit this and i wished i cant.
I'm missing her... I just dunno why.
ChaowS!

2006-12-14T07:27:00.000-08:00

Life is me!
Life is plain... w/out a job
Life is soundless... w/out my hp
Life is boring... w/out friends
Life is sad... w/out anyone who cares 4 me
Life is happy... w/out problems
Life is suffering... w/out talking to the one i miss
Life is full... w/out waiting
Life is the end... w/out her in my life again
So, consider me dead...

2006-12-08T12:21:00.000-08:00

I am sorry...
I was only being a friend who cares...
No heartaches meant...
Never hold back those tears 2 yourself...
Waiting & waiting & nothing happened...
I'm all ears...
Wont leave u alone...
Not going anywhere...
Never...

2006-12-04T07:15:00.000-08:00

~BYE-BYE~

all i need was a 5 minutes chat with a girl to realised that i was only needed by her when she got no one to turn to. when she was with her two ex, i wasn't needed. but after she's alone, she called to talk. i was being stupid when i was hoping for her return last time. newaes, after the call by her ex to me a week ago, she said that it was going to be for the better btw her and the ex. and she dunn mind me not being in contact with her again. so, stop bother calling again if u have read thiscos i dunn wanna make my first time rejecting your call...

btw, hapi advanced bdae...

ChAoWs!

2006-11-24T10:06:00.000-08:00

Dunn mistake the kindness as my weakness

got off to a gd start... got to mit and chat with the gal im missing... but then, it changed. some guy from nowhere called and threaten me... but, such a nuisance is child's play... so, wateva lah eh... anywaes, its because of that gal... the one im missing... (not mentioning any names here). so, no use fighting over a gal no matter how much u dunn wanna let her off your back... btw, im letting it go cause the gal wann me to... not that i take those threats seriously or i chicken out... so now, the both of you can scram & get lost from me. including u, gal. cos there's no freedom without sarifice... and thats wat im doing...

chaows!

2006-11-23T09:12:00.000-08:00

dear someone,

the reason i'm writing this is to let u noe that i am missing a person... but just don't noe hu? might be you, might be someone else. can u tell me how to noe who she is? the only thing i noe is that:

there is no freedom without sacrifice
there is no missing without care
there is no happiness without sufferings
there is no love without a peace
there is no peace without her

so, who is she? got to find out abt her.

from hafiz

2006-11-21T08:19:00.000-08:00

i c your true colours
but let u go when I'm careless
I had since been in tears
Made me the idiot of the years

Firstly, thanks to my LC peeps for the day out on my bdae. Thanks to those bdae wishes. Thanks for remembering my day. Went to smoke Sheesha. Haha... here's some pics

2006-11-17T09:39:00.000-08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Muqsit

2006-11-15T08:31:00.000-08:00

Here's some people sharing their birthday month with me and i would like to wish them happy birthday...(in order of date and time of birth) P.S. don't forget mine...

Ika YC-15/11
Widat-16/11
Muqsit-17/11
Liyanaezzaty-19/11
ME!-20/11
Farid BGSS-21/11
Jasni-22/11
Shikin Marsiling-23/11
Azli-27/11
Fadhil Arab-27/11
Si Min BGSS-29/11

2006-11-12T08:36:00.000-08:00

Love is only a hurting game.
I'm still who i was.

Allegiance is assigned
Forever when the mind
Chooses and stamps the will.
Thus, I must love you still
Through good and ill.

But though we are apart
We may retract the heart
And build such privacies
As self-regard agrees
Conduce to ease.

So manners will repair
The ravage of despair
Which generous love invites,
Preferring quiet nights
To vain delights.

When the last fight is lost, the last sword broken,
The last call sounded, the last order spoken,
When from the field where braver hearts lie sleeping,
Faint, and athirst, and blinded, I come creeping,

With not one waving shred of palm to bring you,
With not one splendid battle-song to sing you,
O Love, in my dishonor and defeat,
Your measureless compassion will be sweet.

2006-11-10T12:48:00.000-08:00

1st, congrats to nasir for passing his TP and buying that SPARK 135... ~"Cey! Dah ada motor sey orang tu"~ So, make sure you give me a ride to school one day. Got to test his bike today... Well, not a waste paying $5k for it... Good job...

Friday, a day when school ends early and work is toughest. Ish, tiring as it is, but it was fun. Bored to the core nowadays with no one to hang out with. The gangs are either busy working or studying for their 'O's or playing with his new bike. Ish! Well, so here I am blabbing at this post...

CHAOWS!

2006-11-08T12:07:00.000-08:00

List of Bad Luck on 8/11/06

1. Wake up late
2. Handphone problem
3. Got booked by teacher for highlighting hair
4. Lost soccer match
5. Bazli lost hp
6. Fadzli lost wallet
7. Got reprimanded for coming home late
8. Cannot sleep and den tmr cannot wake up
9. Computer lag
10. Caught smoking by my dad

2006-11-05T08:12:00.000-08:00

~Karimbat Express & Budak Giler~
This year, it's PURPLE!

2006-11-02T08:47:00.000-08:00

Heylooo!

Went for raya collections just now. Had a lot of fun with LC mates: An, Min, Music, Ju, Firda, Dayah, Boy, Hariz and Irah. LC OI! I'm all full of eating. Hehe... Came back home at 12.03 a.m. What a tiring day it has been... So, I'm off to bed now. Got another sets of houses tomorrow. Chaows!

2006-10-30T11:16:00.000-08:00

(hafiz's love dictionary)

trust - sumthing i learnt recently not to do as i realised that NO ONE is worth trusting unless I have known them for 10 solid years or more.

love - something that is blind which makes someone feel belonged.

special friend - someone who cares, never betrays, sincere, willing to wait for you even if you are damn pissed with them. However, they do make mistakes so take it easy on them.

breakups - a situation to end a relationship. the motive is to wake a person up, hoping they realised it was just a mistake.

patchups - getting back into a past relationship soon after they realised their mistakes.

realtionship - trainee of a marriage. time to suit to a special friend.

2006-10-26T12:22:00.000-07:00

In times of happines...

Went collection for the first time around S'pore, to my relative's houses... Burp~... I had too much food consumed today, and if i keep continuing this way... I guess I end up like a panda... Hehe... Kinda enjoying myself with these celebrations... Thumbs up!

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But, between the happiness and smiles, I had to think... Whether i been so bad to cause a relationship to end or has it been a coincidence? But one thing I knew, I had never been that bad to have the intention to cause a relationship to end... And I was accused for doing what I never even intended... Well, I just wanna apologise for this misunderstanding.... Chaows!

2006-10-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya To All My Friends!

Hey, the first day of Raya is here. Although a boring one... Who cares? As long as there is my kuih and food and tidbits to be eaten... Went for Raya prayers and den stay at hm 4 my collections... hehehe... Well, cant wait to go around getting more with my frens from hm and LC... HAHA! Well, got to go... Ketupat and rendang waiting to be eaten... Take Care Now! Burp~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Minal Aidil Wal Fa'izin
Mohon Maaf Zahir Batin

CHAOWS!

2006-10-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

Hoobastank- If I Were You

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
you look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
you never say a word unless its to complain
its driving me insane

if i were you
holding the world right in my hands
the first thing i'd do
is thank the stars for all that i have
if i were you

look what surrounds you now more than you ever dreamed
have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
so whats it going to take for you to realize
it all could go away in one blink of an eye
it happens all the time

if i were you
holding the world right in my hands
the first thing i'd do
is thank the stars above tell the world i love that i do
if i were you

so whats it going to take for you to realize
it all could go away in one blink of an eye
it happens all the time

2006-10-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

Fantasy News Headline!

---=ITS THE END=---

2006-09-08T14:27:00.000-07:00

=The Nightmare Which Was Once A Dream About You Still Lingers=-

Do u know how it feels to be raised up to the sky and then be shot straight down to the ground the next moment?.. Although you are sweet as candy, you are also sour as a lemon. I screamed in silence every night... You always have the right time to drop the worst line to tear my heart. Why? Caring for you was part of my life. Losing you feels like a stab of the knife. I'm sorry to say but i really hope I woke up one day with a special kind of amnesia... Amnesia of not knowing YOU only.
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Btw, I dunn think that the September thingy is true... Although the August was. 3 including me lost hope on the game... But, should anyone believes in it... I sure wanna noe. What do you do when what you do isn't enuff?

2006-09-05T11:22:00.000-07:00

Masih Aku Terasa

Sejenak aku dikejutkan
Bersama ombak cinta luka
Perpisahan melanda kita
Hanya kerna peristiwa itu

Kiranya takdir mengizinkan
Inginku kembali padamu
Meneruskan cinta yang lalu
Kerana kau yang aku sayangi

Akan kusimpan kenangan cinta kita
Yang tak akan terpadam selamanya
Kehangatan cintamu masih aku terasa
Seperti baru semalam kita berpisah

Tangisan sedu di hatiku
Menahan kepedihan ini
Sendiri aku mengenangkanmu
Hanya engkau yang aku sayangi

2006-09-04T09:50:00.000-07:00

Addictive!
I found an addiction for myself lately, caring for someone who is not with me, missing someone who ignores me, crying for someone i cannot even see and to pretend no other person exists... Well, i noe I shouldn't but i am still all out for her... i am tearing myself at nites just thinking of her...

Well, that aside... Btw, anyone struck by cupid's arrow? Let me know... 1 couple had managed to revive their relationship...

2006-08-31T14:16:00.000-07:00

Me and Jane

As I said, September will bring luck. Well, Good Luck! Cos Tmr is September...

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Happy Teacher's Day!

Enjoyed the day at school and my ex-school, BGSS! Finally met up with my dearest pal, Jane and the rest of the my crew, Aidil, Fadhil, Zaki, Hafiz, Faizal, Farid after so long of missing in action. But Yusuf and Herman was to lazy to meet us up... Well, its normal! HISH! Speak of missing and meeting up, there's someone that i'm missing and hope of meeting...

sebulan berlalu tanpa hadirnya dirimu

untuk memberi kehidupan bagiku

hari-hariku tak bermakna lagi

walau dengan kawan yang ku punyai

sungguh aku setia menanti

walau setahun pun ku tak peduli

2006-08-28T06:18:00.000-07:00

WOW! -The Curse Struck Again-
What in the name of Hell is happening? One more couple ended their relationship... Pity Dayah and Muqsit... I guess the cupids are having their holidays. But seriously, this curse is getting on my nerves... Although both are not that long together, they both still have their hearts for each other. Well, they told me so. Well, hope September brings luck on the right track to all 7 couples who suffered the "August Curse"... Once again, for the relationship which is on the rocks, hang in there... 3 more days to hang on to... I am waiting for it!

September will come, and when it does, don't "wake me up when september ends". Cos i guess a cupid left an arrow on my heart b4 going on the holiday... So, Where Is The Matching Arrow? Still stuck with someone from the past or is it found by someone new?...

Sincerely Yours,
In Loved Hafiz

Love August

2006-08-22T11:24:00.000-07:00

Hmmph... I HATE AUGUST!
Rumours has it that this month of August is a month of breakups... Is it true??? Well, as much as i don't want to believe this, i know of 5 breakups this month... Excluding mine... Irwan, Fadzli, Den,Nisa and Nasir. Is it coincidence or it is true? So, if thats true... the other rumour should be true too... September is when love sparks...I hope so... For those who are still together, better hope September comes early... Wish you guys luck in this game of love... I noe i'll be needing it... Well, i'm done blabbing...

2006-08-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

To all my readers!
Tag me when u are done reading!

To my taggies!
Thanks for reading and understanding me!

To all my peers from BGSS!
esp. Mei Juan, my best lady fren!
Miss you ppl!

To ITE mates!
Thanks 4 making smile and making me want to go to skul!

To gals!
e.g. Nadhrah!
I'm still blinded!

To Myself!
Get A Hang Of Life!

2006-08-20T09:42:00.000-07:00

WHOA!
what a week... kinda busy... sorie ya 4 not updating...
------------------------ Got to test ride a Suzuki GSX... wow! high-speed bike... almost fell when i cant balance up... worth the try... thanks to my sister's fren for borrowing the bike... well, just cannot wait 4 my own TZM... a green-black one, that is.
------------------------------------------ For the taggers like jane and nadh, thanks 4 viewing my blog... miss u gerls too... and not 4getting soupy... thanks 4 being a listener... have a busy week next week too... so, dunn expect me to blog frequently... and to a particular person/friend, thanks... :(, eh salah, :)

Hello

2006-08-16T16:11:00.000-07:00

Hi there to all of you!

Just wanna say... Be happy...
B.T.W, "HAFIZ IS BACK"

Well,
Take Care,
Hafiz

2006-08-11T12:48:00.000-07:00

One of my friend asked what's the reason behind me breaking up with her... Well, it keeps me wondering, too. We never had quarrels that big, no third party were involved, no misunderstandings, no jealousy and we had always respected each other. So? What went wrong?

Some of the reasons why i'm so obsessed with her?

She's mature
Cute
Friendly
Happy-go-lucky
Smart
Independant
Loud

2006-08-08T12:09:00.000-07:00

MY BIRD BRAIN!

i was just stupid to let her go...
this is wat i can promised her should aaz return to my life...
I still believe in miracle...

1. be there when she need someone to rely on even in times of hardship.
2. give enuff room for her to breathe... no use suffocating her.
3. supporting her always.
4. love her for the way she is... changing her only when reasonable.
5. willing to tolerate her.
6. not to think highly of myself.
7. know the needs of her.

2006-08-07T11:05:00.000-07:00

MY LIFE JUST CRUMBLES!

Nvr thought i could cry over one gal for a whole week... She was the most special gal that have ever entered my life... Nvr thought i could let her slip away from under my hand... Well, its sux not seeing her and talking to her again. Her smile was the one that has always lit my life... Willing to give away everything for her hand again... Could just have a minute to cuddle her again...
As I see the picture displayed, I cannot forget the happiness we had together on that night... To tell you the truth, this pic was taken a week before we broke up... dunnoe when and where it got wrong... Never seen her smile like that... well aaz, thanks 4 being there from 24 May to 1 July. hope you get shot by my cupid's arrow again... i'll be waiting...

To aaz (pls think carefully),
was the time spent with me, for fun that you are happy being alone?
was the words you said just for the sake of saying?
was the phrase 'my hafiz' written in your blog, just another decoration?
was the promises made to make me feel comfortable?

Or were you really meaning it? Cos if u were, there still could be a chance...

2006-08-05T11:40:00.000-07:00

What A Day...
Went 2 esplanade 2 c fireworks...
Wow! It works!
With my friends all nite...
We had so much fun...
Which i lacked of...
Was fun but could had been better...
With 'her' around me...
Well, got to go...

so sick...

2006-08-04T01:07:00.000-07:00

So Sick Of Love Song

got to change my answering machine
now that i am alone
cos rite now its seems that we
can't come to the fone
and i noe it made no sense
cos u walk out the door
well its the only way i heal for u some while

(its ridiculous)
its been mths 4 sum reason that ya
(can't get over her)
n im stronger than this
(enuff is enuff)
walking round with my head down
im so over being blue crying over you

and im so sick of love song,
so tired of tears
so done with wishing
u are still here
sad im so sick of love song,
so sad and slow
so why cant i turn off the radio

dont make me think of her smile
i have them out of the shelf
let them go

2006-08-02T10:53:00.000-07:00

Things re-happened again

Another project due tomorrow

Another tear dropped due to sorrow

Another minute just ticked on my clock

Another mistake done by this Dork

Another goal scored while playing soccer
Another chapter in my life without her
Another time i'm left alone
Another gal left my zone

But:-
Will there be another time that i'm going to be with her again?

Saling merindu

2006-08-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

SALING MERINDU

lyrics~
usah kau tangiskan, pada cinta lama
usahkau impikan kita kan bersama
biarkan ia terus berlalu
bagaikan mimpi hilang di mata

kini kau kembali, merayu lagi
kaitkan semula pada madah cinta
harapkan berbunga berputik semula
yang telah lama gugur ke bumi

dalam sukma mimpiku
ia telah berlalu
cinta yang tulus suci
bagiku tiada lagi

aku yg masih ditaman ini
mencari bunga mawar berduri
ku sangka madu racun berbisa
itulah hakikatnya

nak ku tinggalkan terasa sayang
inginku belai tangan tak sampai
pastinya kita saling merindu
ku masih cinta padamu

2006-07-31T07:04:00.000-07:00

Seen That Smile...
Once again...
Comforts me inside-out...
Well, however, u still ain't letting me get close to you...
Why???
Miss being together... the two of us...
well, as long as your ok, i'm fine too...
get some rest...
C Ya Later Alligator....

Still Waiting

2006-07-29T14:34:00.000-07:00

Ring~Ring!

Every morning i woke up, i reached to my fone to c whether u had rung me up... all turned out in dismay... well, you r on your 'vacation' and i am here alone. Gal, miss you a lot... still waiting for you... Take your time...

well, gtg...
chaowz...